What do you do when your thoughts contradict each other?
When your heart says one thing, but you head says the other
Long-term relationships but still no lover
Am I wrong thinking there could be another?
Broken hearts as a result of this ambivalent war
What’s the reason for wanting more?
I had all in one: Mind, Body, and Soul
But there was an emptiness, no one could console
Intellectually stimulating, spiritual depth, emotional connection
But the fire was dim.
Could it be-
this was all caused from within?
Years of uncertainty coming from each other
One more willing to fight than the other.
Maybe I was wrong (It’s true the mind only wants what it had once it’s gone)
Searching for a soulmate only to find
That what I was looking for, I had the whole time.
Why is it that we realize things only when it’s too late?
It is only for so long one is willing to wait
Not knowing ‘if’ or when I’ll ever be ready
Gave the impression that I’ll always be unsteady
Knowing that it’s unfair to live in wonder
I decided to let everything go under.
I have hope that in time, you and me will wake up to see
All of this was meant to be.
Until that day comes
Live your life free
Be a success – and don’t worry about me
Because at the end of the day we may both look back and say:
Had I never known you as my significant other
I wouldn’t be who I am today.
.. Even when I feel like I’m buried six feet deep.
For always providing the resources I need
.. One day, a future generation may not be so lucky 😦
For being so beautiful,
For always listening,
and even sometimes responding.
The universe works in mysterious ways, but I know that it’s always on my side.
❤ Namaste ❤
^^This thought came to me as I was ending my meditation today. It felt great to say “I’m back.” For awhile I was struggling with depression- something we ALL go through every now and again. My anxiety was through the roof. It was terrible. I had discontinued my normal routine of exercise/yoga/meditation and relaxation for awhile due to some major changes in my life. I knew that if I returned to this routine I could be happy again, but it was hard to even find the motivation to actually do it. At first, I started back up with the meditation. But before every meditation I would think to my higher self “Please just help me. Please guide me in the right direction. Please give me some sort of insight on what to do.” I think I was too eager at first, I desired that insight and creativity that once came to me during each meditation so badly, that it was overpowering. Finally, I took a step back and let the magic happen. I’m starting to feel okay again.
It’s so easy to lose yourself, but it can be very hard to find yourself again. But it IS possible, and it’s important to remember that, no matter how impossible it may seem at the time.. no matter how alone you may feel. Even though people tell you you’re not alone, there’s nothing one can say to take you out of the negative mindset that you feel trapped in. Just keep telling yourself that you do not have to stay in that dark place. You don’t have to stay, but it’s up to you to find your way out. Days may seem like weeks, weeks feel like an eternity.. just stay calm, and try to stay positive. Those positive thoughts will eventually add up, and the positive activities will eventually lead you back to your happiness. Everything will fall into place, no matter how much you want to believe they won’t this time, and you just want to give up.. don’t. When you give up, you lose. There are always going to be ups and downs, when your down it’s important you remember how to get back up. Take a look at the people/things/world around you. Everyone/Everything has a struggle, only those who are strong enough actually get through it. You are strong enough. You are human, the only thing that makes you weak is your own ego telling you that you can’t do it. No matter how weak you feel, continue to push yourself to go that extra mile. In the end, you’ll be glad you did. There’s always something to look forward to, even if it’s something as simple as the sun shining through your window. Think about the way it makes you feel, and hold on to that.